Reflections
Time flies my mate, its 24th december 2004! What have i acheived so far? The word 'Nothing' would be a fallacy coz i did achieved somethign but it wasnt in my must-do-list.
Lets reflect... 2003 was the most fucked up year i ever had. My beloved granny passed away, i broke up with my gf just before entering army, I lost a fren i wanted to keep for life in the process, so all in all it was a triple whammy blow to me. Note its 3 blows in 2003. What a nice way to end that year man.
Come 2004, now what kind of year was it for me? A 'transient' year if u ask me. A year to allow me to try to transcend my existing persona. It couldnt be more than a perfect year to do it. A time where i could rebuild my self-confidence, train up, right the flaws I had to become the person what i wanted to be.
Somehow it deviated off abit and i realised i cldnt help it, its inherent in me. No matter how hard hearted i try to look, im still soft and sensitive inside. Im still as softspoken before! As always im still as shy with girls be it ugly or chio. Im still crappy. I have a matured perspective of things but i still portray myself as a kiddo at times. I like certain feminine stuff like mphosis slippers, i find it cool and chic for a guy to wear it but i had to settle for alook-alike, ear studs not earrings... and fuck no im not ah gua, maybe metrosexual. I take pride in trying to groom myself with the exceptions for the lil sprouts of hairs tt juts out of my chin that im too lazy to shave it off most of the times; I put lots acne cream all over my face, i try to drink plenty of water to improve my scaly skin, not to mention nearly daily application of mostueriser on my skin every nite... my bunkmates can testify to that hah.
Weird huh. But its just me. You gotta accept people for whom they are! I never thought of myself to be an asshole, coz as far as it goes from the day i was born, i was inculcated with moral values coz my family strives on taoist teachings somewhat similar to buddha's teachings.
Sometimes im so sick with how society evolves, i wished i could be my own boss running my own company. Everybody would love me as their boss thats for sure. Because the first thing i will do is revamp the whole damn conventional business model. I wont explain it coz it will be too damn long and the place to showcase this concept will be at a appropriate channel - smu. Probably tts why i reiterate and tell myself to do very well in SAT and hopefully get a place there. I believe given what i do best; conceptualise and analyse, i will go places with my education done there.
I guess thats enough about me. What a timely moment for lunch! =)
Lets reflect... 2003 was the most fucked up year i ever had. My beloved granny passed away, i broke up with my gf just before entering army, I lost a fren i wanted to keep for life in the process, so all in all it was a triple whammy blow to me. Note its 3 blows in 2003. What a nice way to end that year man.
Come 2004, now what kind of year was it for me? A 'transient' year if u ask me. A year to allow me to try to transcend my existing persona. It couldnt be more than a perfect year to do it. A time where i could rebuild my self-confidence, train up, right the flaws I had to become the person what i wanted to be.
Somehow it deviated off abit and i realised i cldnt help it, its inherent in me. No matter how hard hearted i try to look, im still soft and sensitive inside. Im still as softspoken before! As always im still as shy with girls be it ugly or chio. Im still crappy. I have a matured perspective of things but i still portray myself as a kiddo at times. I like certain feminine stuff like mphosis slippers, i find it cool and chic for a guy to wear it but i had to settle for alook-alike, ear studs not earrings... and fuck no im not ah gua, maybe metrosexual. I take pride in trying to groom myself with the exceptions for the lil sprouts of hairs tt juts out of my chin that im too lazy to shave it off most of the times; I put lots acne cream all over my face, i try to drink plenty of water to improve my scaly skin, not to mention nearly daily application of mostueriser on my skin every nite... my bunkmates can testify to that hah.
Weird huh. But its just me. You gotta accept people for whom they are! I never thought of myself to be an asshole, coz as far as it goes from the day i was born, i was inculcated with moral values coz my family strives on taoist teachings somewhat similar to buddha's teachings.
Sometimes im so sick with how society evolves, i wished i could be my own boss running my own company. Everybody would love me as their boss thats for sure. Because the first thing i will do is revamp the whole damn conventional business model. I wont explain it coz it will be too damn long and the place to showcase this concept will be at a appropriate channel - smu. Probably tts why i reiterate and tell myself to do very well in SAT and hopefully get a place there. I believe given what i do best; conceptualise and analyse, i will go places with my education done there.
I guess thats enough about me. What a timely moment for lunch! =)
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