It wasnt meant to be

Yesterday was supposed to be an happening nite at zouk mambo unfortunately it was not meant to be. I paid 20 bucks to sip a lychee martini, vodka cranberry and gulp down an e33 before going back camp.

A-C-T-I-V-A-T-E-D. For one moment i was thinking shit now where's the chemical attack now. While i was lamenting how fucking sway to be activated on a moment when the crowds starting to flux, music was grooving to my cerebral sense, babes were like everywhere, it was never more consoling to hear tt we're actually being activated to go back camp and help move stores.

Lameness just hit a new low. On 2004's last mambo nite where the gang is supposed to get drowned in cerebral orgasms on the dance floor and end the year with blast just before shit awaits us next year, we are being activated to move stores?! How timely if u ask me. I guessed we were pissed and disappointed and i do know how or why, someone mentioned supper and i mentioned redhill carrot cake and the gang;whole 9 of us in 2 cars drove down to redhill and eat carrot cake before we go back camp and report.

Notable comical moments when we were alerted activation :

1. Maha in his state of denial thinking it was the green light for 1for1 promo when ludwig was frantically telling us "oei activation".
   
2. Robin and John looking at each other and laughing away coz they tot ludwig was pulling a stunt.
3. Pang and Maha reccing phuture for later plans in the nite which became futile.
   
4. David and MJ telling me leave at 2am and we left at 1130pm.
5. Ludwig horning his car non-stop at the exit; trying to re enact an actual activation except the horning is done on the 5-tonners.
6. John, ariff, maha & me pretending nothing happen when 2 security guards were alerted after the horning commotion as we left the carpark.
   
7. Maha fucking passerbys in the car with the windscreen on with "Hey what the fuck are you looking at? We r being activated".
   
8. Ludwig swearing at the cabby who's driving hell slow
9. Ariff n me showing fuck it attitude and peeed facing the main road behind ludwig's car when we cldnt find the toilet and spoilt for time.
10. Jaya smsing john, "hey i heard u wasted 20 bucks haha"
    
11. Our force sergeant giving us the green light n party on, telling us not to come back when maha said we're abt to enter JB
12. Leavin zouk and report back camp coz nearly the whole platoon knew we were going to mambo and surely bound to make noise.

Zouk Mambo casualty list : David, Mingjie, Ariff, John, Maha, Ludwig, Pang, Jason, Robin and Mark(me)

Rushed back to camp, changed to sai kang attire; vest slack and loaded up into the tonner and went all the way to tuas(tg gul camp) to help load medical stores to the navy ships departing for indonesia at 630am. Well supposedly 630am and that dragged till god knows when. 6th took over us and half of us went back coy line to get ready to book out. Good ol' encik gave the no-no sign and said dinner was indented and kept us until we booked out at 2100 hrs today. Because of this so called activation, my mambo was screwed, i couldnt catch up with my poly mates today, i couldnt attend hweesze's 21st party. Many heartfelt thanks SAF for the efficiency you have shown us.

We spend the entire nite till dawn doing nothing productive except for loading a few stores. Other than tt, most of us were sleeping on the road and it was chilly since its near the coastline and was slacking all the way to afternoon so much so encik decided to give his usual bullshitting lecture which only dampened my mood further. Luckily there was CAT1 and he had to end his bullshit prematurely and we seek shelter on both 5-tonners. Thank god for tt!

To be honest, im still feeling pissed and still rueing over it but as pang has pointed out, maybe it wasnt meant to be. Perhaps it really wasnt meant to be.

Mambo Nite!

Time to party and get high folks. Its down to zouk with my army bros!

Tomorrow mini poly gathering in town, ahpek's back in town, haven seen him like for like 1.5 years, wonder if he's still spotting the F4 look haha. Then its off to hweesze's party at robertson quay at nite and catch up with old friends again...

December's financial budget kinda tight if u ask me. Lets consider today and tomorrow.
Tonite prolly bring 60 bucks with me. 20 for entry, 10 for cab or if robin is coming he can drive me home :P 10 bucks on supper, the rest probably goes to the x no. of jugs we're going to order.
Im estimating shellin like 15-20 bucks for hweesze's gift. Sharing with neth or prob more n we're thinking of fragrance...
Tomorrow's expenditure in town will probably around 50 max. Im assuming we catch a movie, settle down at some bistro and some shiat. Yea tt'll probably around there.

In total >> $60 + $20 $ 50 = S$130 max
There... kinda chor if u ask me...ahh but fuck it la, live to enjoy. You are never forever young.
ERS ni zhai na ni? Hell i could do alot with 400 bucks :D

Back to the books, sometimes i wonder would i have been better off in JC? That remains to be seen... come next year n i'll probably know.

3rd jan beckons

Shit seems to be awaiting me on tt day. Sigh, deployments n deployments... Will the 7th platoon live up to be among the legends? HMMMMM.

Had a christmas party at asylum. CO was generous to donate 2k and guess tt funded our coy's party. Nothing happening except tt the waitresses were eye candies! Haha iman was cheeky, taking fotos halfway, pretended to put his arms over the girls(waitresses) n one freaked out! tsk tsk :D

Haha helped ariff snapped a shot with this eurasian chick. I'll drink to tt with u bro, she's HOT plus she's got the girl-next-door look. Haha props to ya for asking her to take a pic with you.

Played pool and won one game only lol, that was fuckin pathetic if u ask me. Cuppage mechmaster is such a rundown place now though it brought back happy yet sad memories when i was in poly :)

Tomorrow epl is on...someting to look forward to :)

Reflections

Time flies my mate, its 24th december 2004! What have i acheived so far? The word 'Nothing' would be a fallacy coz i did achieved somethign but it wasnt in my must-do-list.

Lets reflect... 2003 was the most fucked up year i ever had. My beloved granny passed away, i broke up with my gf just before entering army, I lost a fren i wanted to keep for life in the process, so all in all it was a triple whammy blow to me. Note its 3 blows in 2003. What a nice way to end that year man.

Come 2004, now what kind of year was it for me? A 'transient' year if u ask me. A year to allow me to try to transcend my existing persona. It couldnt be more than a perfect year to do it. A time where i could rebuild my self-confidence, train up, right the flaws I had to become the person what i wanted to be.

Somehow it deviated off abit and i realised i cldnt help it, its inherent in me. No matter how hard hearted i try to look, im still soft and sensitive inside. Im still as softspoken before! As always im still as shy with girls be it ugly or chio. Im still crappy. I have a matured perspective of things but i still portray myself as a kiddo at times. I like certain feminine stuff like mphosis slippers, i find it cool and chic for a guy to wear it but i had to settle for alook-alike, ear studs not earrings... and fuck no im not ah gua, maybe metrosexual. I take pride in trying to groom myself with the exceptions for the lil sprouts of hairs tt juts out of my chin that im too lazy to shave it off most of the times; I put lots acne cream all over my face, i try to drink plenty of water to improve my scaly skin, not to mention nearly daily application of mostueriser on my skin every nite... my bunkmates can testify to that hah.

Weird huh. But its just me. You gotta accept people for whom they are! I never thought of myself to be an asshole, coz as far as it goes from the day i was born, i was inculcated with moral values coz my family strives on taoist teachings somewhat similar to buddha's teachings.

Sometimes im so sick with how society evolves, i wished i could be my own boss running my own company. Everybody would love me as their boss thats for sure. Because the first thing i will do is revamp the whole damn conventional business model. I wont explain it coz it will be too damn long and the place to showcase this concept will be at a appropriate channel - smu. Probably tts why i reiterate and tell myself to do very well in SAT and hopefully get a place there. I believe given what i do best; conceptualise and analyse, i will go places with my education done there.

I guess thats enough about me. What a timely moment for lunch! =)

Army blues or rants? You decide

Hell yea, company off till 3rd Jan 2005! Enjoy myself while i can... Wait i cant, i gotta to study for SAT again... wasnt satisfied wif my old score so im determined to pass the 1300 mark at least. My realistic target is 1400 n i hope i hit it seriously then perhaps my chances of getting into smu would be easier since they still consider SAT.

Boring brief from our dear 'mooner' on his expectations as a spec. Here are some debatable if not illogical, myopic excerpts...

• What is a specialist? Ans: Outstanding enlistee.

LOL what the fuck man. It seems enlistees are classified from private onwards to corporal. Erm ok though i dont see the logic in it. IMO, an outstanding enlistee is someone who is the best out of cohort when he was enlisted into the freaking army which warrants him a place in a place called OCS. Makes more sense if u ask me... ok nvm next one...

• He claims medics are fuck types who cannot make it and are posted there.

Well there is a certain degree of truth in it but thats a sweeping statement because not all who are posted there are fuck type. Im not defending myself but there are some who can lead but were denied tt chance coz they were obese. Im sure there are some who can lead but cant be bothered coz its the ARMY. Leaders do need not be bred in army to showcase their potential, its leadership in the corporate world that counts u cunt. What you say? Officers, sergeants are in the mainstream? So you look up to ppl who wayang alot? SIT test is a fine example; so many ppl wayanging coming out with stupid ideas to solve a situation just to impress the officer so he can get into OCS. I dun suck up thanks and if ure fuck type it doesnt mean everybody else is.

• If fucktypes are the best, then there is a problem.

I dont know how long u can kid SAF, but we are the best because we're the only unique unit that does the this particular shit besides SCDF. I dont know wat nonsence you have indoctrinated inside the damn so called official doctrines. But good luck to me and my future juniors for their future looks bleak.

• High standards in work quality in army akin to those found in corporate world.
  

What utter rubbish. Having complicated diagrams or illustrations and piles of documentation means quality work? I heard from 3sg victor he went to an extend to even using a ghannt chart? lol what the fuck man. Do you even know what a ghannt chart is for? Its plotting your progress notably in IT projects. I got no idea how vic incorporated into the report, but as far as im concerned, it just sounds plain ridiculous. Whats the point of having a report to look impressive but the details in it is far from what u expect? There you go, words of wisdom indeed.

TOo much to rattle on, in fact im so sick of this. Its best i enjoy my holis and end the year 2004 memorably.

Wonder whats the life of a 3sg? Guess i'll find out in 2005 coz tts when i start to take over operational duties. Ushering in the year 2005 also ushers in the bullshit encik is gonna throw at us. Prepare for more boring endurance talks which can deviate somewhere else most of the time. Rest assured i'll be trying very hard to fight the zZz monster then.

Tomorrow dim sum buffet at dragongate....Yummy! Then after tt i gotta go back camp for guard duty... what an anti-climax. I was actually considering swimming nearby and get a tan at the same time sigh.
One day i'll go down town and take a look at for my cny shopping =P Its been a while i actually combed the shops of orchard. Hopefully the babe meter has improved and upped a notch!

Not much soccer until 26th dec...enjoy civilian life to the max and end the year with a bang. I sincerely wish that 2005 will be best year ill have comparable to 2000 if not even better!

Mr Bull at it again.

Yessire, the "impeccable" masta mooner strikes again, tying you down in what i call a ludicrous proposition.

We have been kindly tasked to buy a changko(right spelling?) , SAF ponchos. bike hooks, tent pins. WOW god knows how much are they going to cost. Thx for the bright idea man, we're merely NSF not regulars, taking home the most $660. What do you want me to do with the changko when i ord? Shaft it up your ass? Maybe I can go to the beach n dig a firetrench and have an orgy in it? Or perhaps dig a shellscript just nice to bury you in it? Or how abt I dig sand out and create a sandcastle instead?. Isnt it amazing what you can do with a mere changko?
If u ask me, it just gets retarded everyday, and the xx years u have served in army is a testamont to that! Exactly 365 days to F O from the army. Going to ORD LOH!

Well ocean's 12 was a disapointing show. If you were fasincated by the way how the daniel ocean robbed the bellagio and were expecting a better one, forget it, u'll only be in for disappointments. I give it a 2.5 / 5. Its actually hell lesser but since catherine zeta-jones was such babe in it =O, i cldnt bear to give it a 1.

I dont know how to describe my topo exercise the other day but lets just say i never liked going outfield, not even one bit. Topoing around limchukang cemetary was a breeze, mandai was ok except for the bashing through the forest finding the various checkpoints. Caught up with ariff's grp and we exchanged checkpoint co-ordinates with them and that marked the end of our topo exercise lol. Just slacked all the way somewhere cozy inside mandai. Managed to catch some of the commandos doing their topo exercise. Now tts wat i call a real soldier topoing; camo on, jungle hats, armed with SAR21. If you thought bashin through the trees was bad, then donning the beret made u looked stupid. Like hello? Its a bluuueee beret not a red one! No prizes for guessing who advocated that nonsence anyway. In fact who topos in a forest with a beret in SAF? All of us switched to our jungle hats later on and were" bao toh" to our force sergeant who came down and gave us a nice physical training session , opps i mean tekan session. Thanks for the PT man, worked out abit there ;)

Guess $50 dollar call tip works well...zhun zhun tips! I think if this goes on, guess pang n me will be patronising modestos anytime baby! Sides MORE and FREE $$ to spend every wkend! Soccer update. Man u and chelsea won covincingly yesterday, looks like chelsea is set to go into 2005 as winter champions. Im banking on arsenal to beat portsmouth though i cant say the same for liverpool hehe.

Tomorrow 2D 1N fieldcamp in lentor. Just sweeet! Dont you think so ? YEA RITE.

The rationale behind it.

The real reason why encik advocates the donning of beret at all times concluded by john one fine day haha.

Its no wonder why encik loves saying "Keep it tight".

Went PS and caught blade trinity. Used up the free GV movie passes, my auntie gave tee hee. The show wasnt too bad would rate it about 3/5, the array of weapons was uber cool. I kinda like evil gothic kind of makeup on girls; the kind u see on marilyn manson. One word - S E X Y!
Had seafood platter for one at fish&co. Its supposed to be filling but i still gorge somemore, gluttony runs in me alrite though not hereditary =D. Sometimes when i look at my tummy, i wonder when will it become flat as a washboard...

Been in the army for nearly 1.5 years and in retrospect, I feel ive been a changed person.

1. Im verbally more crass than before.
2. Mentally and physically, i have improved in both aspects.
3. Ive learnt how to drive their 5-tonners while clocking enough mileage to warrant my class 3 civilian licence.
4. Got a feel on how paramedics work, learnt really useful paramedic knowledge.
5. Realised that god has been nice to me; my vocation in army is considered by far the best in army in terms of tangible benefits that is fruitful after ur NSF though not in term of skiving though :P
   
• Paramedic knowledge @ lvl2; 1 more level and i am eligible for the role of a scdf paramedic in sg.
• Driving. I get to drive nearly all kinds of vehicles in army in future; land rover, 3/5 tonners, saloon cars, mini buses, ambulance etc.
• Rank; to top it up 3rd sergeant. Sweet, though i would prefer the money(650) over rank anytime.

Got topo exercise and field camp and after that it will spell the end of it, invoking a series of more new unnecessary bullshit to do...C-PAM, Driver Safety/Obstacle package, personal training under encik. Wah happening man, yea rite sounds more like fuck shit if u ask me. Sounds contradictory but when it comes to SAF, i activate my pragmatic mode but when its not in army context, its whole different story; *reverts to fuck-it-and-enjoy-life attitude* The typical mentality assimilated to every NSF until they ORD>>>

By the way, why WHY! WHY MUST THEY SHOW ARSENAL VS CHELSEA ON A SUN MIDNITE! WHHYYYYY!

Time to break that hymen of blogging

Well shitwei told me to get a blog, so since i love to blabble nonsence so here i am. My first virgin post!

Had ambulance n hospital attachment this week! Had a feel n taste of how paramedics go all out to save people though their methodology of handling casualties doesnt seem orthodox but they still get my respect man. Very on the ball at times, enlightening me on some insights as well. Now u know y queues in emergency dept in the hospital takes forever! Tts coz docs sometimes take their time to see patients! Oh well... best thing was i saw a doc msning while typing the diagnosis for the patient on her pc heh. Plus police is so bloody efficient, fancy arriving at the scene before scdf well thats SPF for u! Haha are u reading this mr shiwai?

Soccer update. Man u 2nd stringers beat Arsenal 2nd stringers 1-0 . Expected though considering arsenal's lineup was unheard of. Soccernet's title for the report was so apt - Kids KO'd LOL.

Had this lil chat wif fab on how chelski has evolved so far since ranieri's reign. To be honest being a man u fan, i m impressed with the current squad that chelsea boasts of, especially with robben in it now. Their midfield is by far the most impressive ive seen in awhile; Robben - lampard - makelele - duff though their striking dept does need some bolstering there. Drogba is def not worth the 24mil tag. Kezman boasting of a better record when he was in psv compared to rvn then is a perpetual flop. There was a reson why he was worth a mere 5mil and van nistelrooy on the other hand - 19mil. As usual, chelsea looks fav to lift this year's 04/05 premier league trophy. Time to move over arsenal, man u?

My spec lenses r full of scratches and the best thing its not under warranty. What the fuck man. Considering to change it perhaps send my oaks for repairs too la, Its improportional now thanks to mingjie for his daily dosage of 'play' sessions in nursing room. He has a heart of gold n the might of a farkin bull man, im always getting owned on the floor anyway! Gee makes u wonder if his past life was a water buffalo. -_-!

Book-in to camp 2mr morning by 7am. Sat final theory and monday final pract. What an anti-climax...

Sat - chill out with boys at indochine. Its about time. On a lighter note, its exactly one month since i turned 21. What a coincidence. Seriously i need a life...somebody save me!